Hello McFly!

Is there anyone out there aside from me that thinks that $9 is a little excessive for a vegetarian burger?   Not even a gourmet vegetarian burger, just a lentil patty on a bread roll with a bit of salad and a tomato….   NINE bucks for that?! Come on! That’s insane!!  I just about fell over when the bf came home and told me how much he spent on my dinner last night.

I had a bit of a run in with one of the guys from college today, and I feel pretty darn crap at the moment.  I was supposed to be helping him with a kind of santa photo- only the religious version.  I was kinda excited (albeit a little nervous) at the prospect.  It wasn’t great work, but at least it was experience and for only $7 an hour, experience is ALL it was about.

However, he neglected to tell me that I would be required to source my own public liability insurance, business attire, business cards and equipment.  Business attire would not normally be a big deal, except that I don’t FIT into any of my old stuff, which means I would have to go out and buy more.  And the business cards… well, as I have no intention of going out on my own with my own business just yet, these would be a waste of money (I plan to work with a pro if I can as an assistant or photoshop guru).  The equipment, yeah okay that’s alright, I can understand that, except my digi has been dropped a few too many times and isn’t all that reliable. 

But the corker of all this is the insurance.  The insurance will cost me more than I will earn in the whole week I will be working.  And with my precarious financial situation at the moment, I’m not willing to fork out anymore than what I have to to get by. 

Anyway, when I told the bf the situation, he was pissed. He doesn’t want me working for $7 an hour… hell, I don’t wanna be working for $7- especially not considering how much I have got done around the house since I have been home.  Sure, the experience would have been cool, but santa photos… talk about a production line.  There really isn’t too much involved in that, is there?  Its like pixie photos – all set up.

So I had to ring the college guy today and tell him I couldn’t do it… I felt so bad and he was freakin’ pissed.  As you would be.  I feel really bad for him and cried like a sissy afterwards.  I feel like I have burnt bridges and he accused me of not being professional… but frankly in my mind I wasn’t doing this as a professional – I was just trying to help him out, but he mislead me with the costs involved. Why else would I consider working for $7 an hour?? He was always the first to tell me not to sell myself short when pricing myself or my work.

I feel pretty rotten that there’s someone out there badmouthing me… but my reasons are legitimate…. Aren’t they??? Oh man, I feel crap L

In other news… I still can’t quite relax and feel like I am on holidays.  Since I have been home I have been feeling awfully guilty that the bf is at work and I’m here, so I have been trying to do as much as I can around the house…. Its certainly long over due.  Yesterday I focused on the bathroom and finally got some shelves for the laundry and bits and pieces like a shower caddy (omg! How did I ever survive without one?!) so now the bathroom is in a really nice state.  And I tided up the deck, dismantled the darkroom so we could have our outdoor setting and spare room back…  and I even tided the bookshelf and my corner where I had all my photocrap… it feels like the house has just doubled in size and the bf loves having me home doing all this stuff.  I like it too… I cant wait until I can make the house presentable enough to have guests over!

On Tuesday night we went and saw Casino Royale.  I really really super enjoyed it… considering that I normally go for chick flicks with nice, happy safe predictable endings where no one dies particularly violently.  It was nice to watch an action movie and not think it was real life… all though I did feel sorry for the family of the dude that ended up laying face first on the tarmac… its just a movie, man! Get over it… sheesh!  Usually I think that the entire way through movies… hence why I don’t normally like them.

Anyway, I must get a move on… if I impress the bf with my stay-home-wife awesomeness, maybe he wont force me to back to work straight away heh…